Sunday, February 19, 2006

One Fine Day

I had not written a blog in a long time because I kept telling myself and others too, that I cannot write anything good while I am happy and if I am really happy, then just forget about blogging. But I am ready to take a chance. Let me warn you this blog has a high mushiness quotient, so the hard at heart and cynics beware.

This blog is dedicated to my Jaan, my life, my love Abhi. He walked into my life when I thought I had learnt all of life’s lessons. I was no more a mushy romantic teenager who swooned to MLTR rather I was a head banging rebel. A hardened soul who thought feelings and matters related to the heart are things of fiction and only people who are severely mentally ill or unbelievably lucky find their soul mates.

And then he walked into my life when my world seemed hopeless, like sunshine on a gloomy day, like refreshing rain on a scourging earth, like life itself into an empty ruin of a woman. It was a cold November night when we met to share a beer and I told him something which would make him mine for ever. Only I didn’t know that then. I told him my biggest fear was that the man I am going to marry is never going understand my jokes and we laughed heartily. The night was spent recalling memories and stealing glances. There was magic in the air and I think I saw the moon smile at me.

Since then days and nights were spent at coffee shops, restaurants, streets, pubs and riding around town; exchanging thoughts on life, love, mystery, work, gals-boys and lot of things which weren’t spoken but conveyed none the less.
And then came that eventful night at Pecos, first floor, table 1, 4 pitchers down, two sloshed drunkards trying to outwit each other and in all that chaos revealed their deepest desires; mine was life and his was ‘me’.

Then followed days of denial, fears, anguish, loss, recalling painful memories, road blocks, what-ifs, if-nots, why-shoulds and inspite of all my battering my man stuck to his stance and he won. I have never been happier to lose.
On a sparkly Christmas night we said ‘I love you’ and we exchanged our fears for a lifetime promise of love.

Since then life has been on this roller-coaster of fine, better, best and outstanding bliss and happiness; inspite of the distance, time lag and busy schedules. My eyes have lit up with his love, the world is indeed colorful and beautiful, and people truly are friendlier. What’s more our sighs say more than a Shakespearean love story; time and space do not matter while 12 hour conversations pursue across continents, my heart skips a beat every time he smiles. What can I, say I am truly, madly, deeply, absolutely, head over heels in love.

I know our journey has just begun and we have a long way to go, but I am not afraid anymore.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Things done and undone

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions*************
02. I don't watch much TV these days.*************
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books. (not loads but enough)
06. I once slept in a toilet.*************
07. I love playing video games.****************
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks..*************
12. I love spiders..*************
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool*************
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year*****************
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn..******************
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart*************
21. I've never broken someone's bones***************
22.I have a secret.. *********************
23. I hate snow *******************
25. Punk rock rules **************
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food*************
28. I would hate to be famous*************
29. I am not a morning person*********************
30. I wear glasses*************
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential.********************
33. I'm pure Japanese..
34. My legs are two different sizes*************
35. I have a twin
36. I wear a padded bra.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing*************
38. I'm left-handed
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies*************
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway*******************
42. People hate me usually
43. I love pop music*************
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight..************
45. I hate parking fines. *********************
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart. ******************
47. I know more than two languages... ****************
48. I spend too much time on my computer..***************
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window...
50. I live on a ground floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.****************
53. I've lied.*********************
54. Cocks are my favorite birds.
55. I want to conquer the world.*****************
56. I wonder what happens when you die**************
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise
60. I hate chemistry*************
61. I love to write..*******************
62. I like changes.******************
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die. ****************
65. I hate dish washing.**************
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.
67. My nails are nine inch long.
68. My favorite color is black
69. I like to sleep on the floor
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little*************
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.**********
73. I am online a lot.**********
74. I hate government. **********
75. I don't have a boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good.**********
77. I love to read. **********
78. I don't trust newspapers.**********
79. I like debating*************
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month..**********
82. I'm scared of american fast food*************
83. I am prying open my third eye*************
84. I love Mozambique*************
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little..**********
88. I like listening to wind chimes*************
89. I'm very disorganized..**********
90. My hair is long and straight. **********
91. I earn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels.**********
95. I am very lazy*************
96. I'm sarcastic.**********
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I am very sensitive.
99. I love being abnormal*************
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue*************

Courtesy BC JOX